Day and night

DAY: Erratic heartbeat As our eyes meet From one corner to the other My eyes find the leather So as to avoid your gaze * NIGHT: Entangled bodies Colliding Through space and time As your eyes reflect the distance And I try in vain to access The abyss * written February 3rd (21:23) Advertisements

Words’ embrace

I miss our words kissing each other Minds fully bent and broken Yet still hoping To raise the other Above this dusty, rotten crust beneath our feet * written February 3rd (21:18)

At the threshold

I’d been left waiting For so long At the threshold Refused entry Into the kingdom Those around me Spoke of In whispers * Tapping me on the shoulder You gestured towards the ceiling Took me by the hand And led me in Crossing stars and the moon Before diving straight Without restraint Into that eternally…

Into the abyss

Waiting upon a promise You’ll never fulfill Waiting foolishly for an old thrill That you took with you into the abyss * written February 3rd (18:02)

Lighthouse and the lies

No light left in my eyes Judge for yourself the distance Between the lighthouse and the lies I tell myself as I force myself into a trance Convincing myself I’ll be all right Just let me be, at least for a night * Sick of the nightmares of you Of being afraid Sick of waking…

Easier than breathing

With you, I didn’t have to try No longer straining to make my life fit into the narrow box I wanted it to be With you, I just was. Calmly Simply Truly Me * There was no need to search for a definition of myself Gather the words that described me And peer through them,…

Frame

Perhaps I just came too late Had we met 12 or 18 months earlier Everything might have worked out * Then again I’d be different So would you Perhaps our pieces wouldn’t have fit The way they did Perhaps She was the one you needed to Complete your puzzle While I was only the frame…

Don’t trust the captain

And every time You cross my line of sight I hear the waves of your ocean crashing Against the rocks you have built around yourself And the ship I float on Suddenly wants to shipwreck Onto your shores * Abruptly, The fire within me Cannot wait to be put out But instead begs for your…

Scarred moon

But he made me feel like maybe I was the sun And him the moon When I would inevitably revolve around him Telling myself I had control When I had no say in the matter * But the stars would always prove themselves to be out of my reach And the empty space separating us…

Cured

You saved me And then you said goodbye * Slamming the door on the way out Locking it So I could never get back in Pulled the curtains shut so you would never have to see my tear-streaked face Played your music at its loudest So as to avoid my sobs and The sound of…

Pillows

The pillows beside me at night Bear witness to the madness That has taken me over Soothing me into slumber As I struggle to remember How it felt to not be paralyzed By fright * The man-shaped bundle I hug as I stumble Through nightmares and daydreams of you Has finally acknowledged its most recent…

A dream

A dream We crossed paths And you pulled me closer I stood, skeptical, bracing for The push And your lips met mine * Suddenly, I was drowning And no part of you was close Enough for me to breathe in Oxygen * You kissed me roughly Passionately, like the only other option was Death I…