You’re like a scent that I can’t shake off
Whether stench or perfume, who knows?
You permeate every room I walk into
Haven’t let go of you yet
With time, the distance will be an easier suit to wear
I need time
You do too
Do I wish you to come back?
Right now, hell yeah I do
But is that what’s best for me?
I’ve grown so much in the month we’ve known each other
Guess now what I need is to do some growing on my own.
Crash down from the dream and dizziness I lived in
Clear my mind
Not destroy myself
And instead catch myself on a rock or a ledge on the way down
And boost myself up from there
Shimmy my way back to the top of the cliff
And rise again
Like I used to
10 000 km away
When the world would shrink and I couldn’t feel at ease in the constricting atmosphere
When I would struggle just to breathe
Just to live
Take it easy on myself and not push myself further into the mud
Because self-annihilation would help nothing at this point.
And a part of me hopes you still care, that you carry a piece of me with you wherever you go.