That’s what I live for.
That doesn’t mean I’ll stop seeing you everywhere,
Even when you’re not there.
I’ll come to accept it.
Whether you come back or not.
My mind’s already clearer
Too used to people letting me go
Or me casting them away
Focus on something else until the memories fade
So that if you don’t come back
I won’t remember so much
And if you do come back
We can build it all over again
On steadier, healthier foundations
So I can stop clinging to you like a rock
When I’m drowning.
So I can stop being terrified of the ocean
Because I can’t sink
Because my body and soul won’t let me
People walk by and I smoke
Cars drive by and I sit on this wall
Music blasting so I don’t notice their existence
Rules are made,
Did I choose them or did you impose?
I can, for once, follow the rules set.