Being me, simply

And for a second, for a wonderful minute, I realise I don’t regret any of it. Me, who always regrets all her decisions as soon as she makes them, Looking back, I don’t regret any of it. Sure, there was some ugly stuff there, but in the end, There was beauty to that. I lived…

I’m stupid

I’m stupid, Am I not? For thinking this could become anything? Says average teenager to her diary, I feel like I’m 12. Seriously, who writes poetry? Yet here I am, Telling you this, To whoever’s listening. Feeling low, like I always do, Wednesdays 6pm One last try, get done with class in 3 hours, drive…

Just one chance

I feel like I’m going crazy But I just haven’t found a way to get you out of my mind yet. Believe me, I’ve tried all I could think of. * But nothing seems to be enough. You still find a way to claw through the trapdoor and Crawl your way through my airways and…

Upside right

Not even a week, and you’ve already changed everything. Turned it all upside down and wreaked your havoc in my head. My thoughts spin with the momentum and even after we leave each other’s side, my mind stays blurred and fuzzy with your scent, and your presence in there. * Even at night, you find…

Fighting my flying heartbeat

He brings out my worst torments and most intense desires. With him, I know my darkness would be satisfied, That I would burn like a part of me has been begging for for centuries. The more rational part of me knows he would be unhealthy for me But how am I supposed to fight my…

The broken, the useless, the daunting

Change me into somebody better Erase all the darkness within Give me some of the light I can see glowing on your skin * I always fall for boys like you The dark, the handsome, the haunting And you never fall for girls like me The broken, the useless, the daunting * So switch it…

Darkness and the water

Darkness runs over me like water, concealing the scars that scald my skin Darkness smothers the good in me, deletes it all ’til I’m lost within (14 October 2015, 16:51)

Song #2: Rip me apart

Rip me apart I want to bleed Set me apart I want to be seen * Drown me in nightmares Until I forget The torture within Would hurt less than Anything you could do to me * Bleed Bleed Bleed I want to Get lost in your reality Hurt Hurt Hurt Myself Let me quench…

Cigarettes and rooftops

This might be a new start, I dunno But I feel like somebody else when I’m with them Even though my inherent cheerfulness seems out of place in that time I’m surprised to find myself more focused in their company, Like I know who I am and where I’m going Like everything will be ok…

The dark one

Mostly, I hate this side of me: The dark one The haunting one The heavy one * But when she takes hold of me, When I can feel the smothering fog crawl through my limbs, I can’t stop her * She doesn’t knock, just bursts in without acknowledging my presence And takes control And yet……

In the dark

Why not forget? After all, that’s all I’ve ever wished for * Night calls Stars, last symbol of hope Shine, but this old soul here Cannot hear them * And I rise again, Intimidating, Intriguing, Mysterious Clad in black Stiff and tall With newfound strength * Night calls And I feel at home in it…

A white dream

It’s night Everything is clouded over Covered in smoke The night is black and threatening And I can only see the streetlights All that is left: This uncertain hope And in my head The ferris wheel turns turns turns And I dance dance dance To forget it all * And to the rhythm of the…